Reset: Step 1

I'm a liar.  This will not only be 1 step.  I'm not capable of doing 1 thing at a time. 






This is something I should work on... eventually.






Right now I'm at Point A.  The wretched Point A where I'm studying myself in mirrors and making self improvement lists (like this one) and vowing tomorrow will be different.  Maybe it will be different because I've declared it on the interwebs?






Point B is somewhere in the distance.  Irrational Laura sees Point B just down the road, maybe 3 months away and sees the semi straight line I'll follow to get there.  Irrational Laura also thinks that Rockstar and a twix bar are good breakfast choices because she's driving 200 miles and needs energy. 






Rational Laura knows that Point B is deceptive.  She can see it but can't tell the distance, probably because she's not wearing her glasses and is squinting really hard.  She also knows that it might actually be a mirage and maybe Point B isn't actually there and I'll end up at a to-be-determined Point C.






Enough metaphor bullshit. 






During the drive home, hungover and sick I decided to take a break from alcohol.  I don't have a problem with alcohol, besides the fact that a few times a year I choose to drink too much of it.  But nothing good really comes from it and I don't need it.  So I'm taking a break.  The same with caffeine.  I have never finished a Rockstar and said to myself "man, I'm so glad I drank that!"  I drink them for specific purposes like staying awake or for a quick pick me up, but I know that I crash really hard later and feel anxious.  Coffee is less severe, but nothing good comes from it, besides the social experience with coworkers.  So I'm taking a break from caffeine as well.






So far:






1. Take a break from alcohol.
2. Take a break from caffeine.






You know what else I need to do?  Sleep.  I'm averaging about 5 hours a night during the work week because I'm up till midnight hanging out with Trevor, then up at 5 to start working.  Then Saturday I stay in bed till 2 because I've crashed from all the caffeine and stress.  And that is really dumb.  I'm setting myself a goal to be in bed at 10 PM.  Not asleep, I don't need to put pressure on myself, but I want to be in bed, winding down, and I bet I will be asleep earlier more often than not. 






3. In bed by 10.






There it is - my first set of goals for this reset.  Not sure when I'll set the next few goals, right now when I'm thinking that I have these totally dialed in and I'm ready to take on more.  Here we go, wish me luck!